in my face

just moments after I published my previous post, my world changed

I had actually received this SMS earlier on, I just didn't want to believe that it was happening.

they always say that seniors waited for at least a year, and I didn't even go for any interview

and what's more importanter (lol) is that I am very much against being a teacher T.T

I keep waiting for other job offers: conceptual writer, content writer, communication writer etc.

who would have guessed that this would come first T.T

so I am going to SMK Meradong, as an interim teacher.

Don't ask me what an Interim teacher is, I wish I knew.

I don't know what lies ahead.

all I know is that this place is a 7 hours drive from Kuching.

and that I am already looking forward to school holidays.

reporting to school on Monday, gonna move my reluctant ass to a whole new place.

I don't know what to feel anymore. I don't know why I feel like crying.

I should be feeling lucky.

I miss my frog.

One week has passed since my last post. Just yesterday, we sent pet frog back to Taiwan again.

This morning, I woke up to her empty mattress beside me, feeling as empty as that mattress.

The next time we get to meet would be the next CNY, is that not torturous? *sighs*

Okay I don't really know what to feel, emotions just kicked in. 

I still don't know what my future is gonna be like.

It's okay, they say. Enjoy first, they say.

But they also say, you can try this, you can try that.

GAHHHHHH.

Where do I wanna be, what do I wanna be.

Where do I see myself in 5 years.

I don't know. Probably still sitting in front of this same laptop (hopefully it is still alive), fretting about the next 5 years to come. LOL. I was just kidding. I'd die of boredom, and self-hate. Please remind me if I forget, thank you. Anyway, don't you get annoyed by people who cannot differentiate boring and bored. I'm boring. Yea, you are pretty boring. So boring that you bore me. *roll eyes* I am not arrogant or whatever, I just can't stand that.

see, I always sidetrack.

Some people are so clear of what they want, they work hard, they get into all the right courses, they do all the right things, and they end up where they want to be. Can't believe after 8 months of finishing my degree I am still standing here. Heh. How interesting.

Gongxi gongxi gongxi

Happy Chinese New Year you guys!

A distant relative is here visiting, I dread socializing with them (don't judge me, lol). Suddenly came an annoying fly, I seized the chance and volunteered becoming the fly catcher. While I was waltzing around with the racket, looking for signs of the fly, I suddenly had a sense of deja vu. Ahh, I did it during one of the Quidditch matches back at school! 

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One can always imagine right. Hahaha

Hi I'm the latest Hufflepuff seeker. :D

Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu menjinjjng

A long hiatus again. These days I have been busy, CNY is coming, lots of work to be done. Plus, ibeho is back in town! Meaning that I finally have someone to go out with! 

It is always easier said than done right? About almost everything. When holding on so hard hurts, will you let go? Can you let go? 

 

Happy monkey year from the both of us hahah

#1 Family first sounds good

Just came back from the first family gathering of 2016, actually it was the full moon party of my youngest cousin Youyou.

It was such a cute scene seeing these kids playing together.

I wish they grow up happy and healthy. Cannot imagine me being this young as well about 20 years ago, but I know I was a cute kid (I still am hahaha). Time flies, doesn't it. Do you remember your earliest conscious memories?

Anyway, we brought our big yellow luggage back home which was being lent to the cousin who went to Melbourne for a holiday. When we were home, mum looked at the yellow luggage bag and said to it, "Wah, you went to Melbourne! Even I haven't been there yet." and the yellow luggage bag just looked at her quietly. What an arrogant bag.