7 early 8 early? YOU GOT TO BE KIDDING ME and please TURN OFF YOUR G6 SONG!

a very good morning to all my dear readers

it's my second day of exam

my paper is at 11.30am

i planned to wake up at 9.20am to bathe, breakfast, then study

and set off at 10.45am to the exam hall

but right now it is 7.10am and i am wide awake

thanks to my roommate B who keeps singing and printing things

EARLY IN THE MORNING

whatever happened to being a considerate roommate?

AND YOU YES YOU

YOUR PHONE'S ALARM TONE OR RINGING TONE

OR WHATEVER IT IS

IS BUGGING THE HELL OUTTA ME!

and roommate A is seriously getting onto my last nerve

FOR THE 3RD TIME IN WEEKS SHE LEFT HER KEY LYING AROUND

WITH THE A306 PLATE ON IT

WHAT IF SOME OUTSIDER GOT IT AND CAME INTO MY ROOM

and i expected you to be more cautious

racist or not, i guess you just don't have a brain to think of all the dangerous possibilities

fml.

and IT IS SO HOT

HOT LIKE OVEN

I WEAR SINGLET LIAO STILL SO HOT HOW SLEEP

T,T

and THERE IS THIS UGLY MOTH WHICH DECIDED TO STAY ON THE WALL BESIDE MY BED

HOW SLEEP TELL ME HOW SLEEP! t.t

this is foh shure gonna spoil mai mood foh ze whole freaking day T.T

WO HEN JEKKKKKK!

sometimes..

we really have to admit that.

lighting and angles do change many things.

and how can we blame those who get cheated by photos they see online?

lol.

actually i am too bored. and so hot!

remember my post about the safety and security in my area?

well, two days after i blogged about it, my house was broken into.

i was away in Lundu enjoying my prawn, when mum called up.

Froggie was alone at home in the afternoon facebooking as she said, when she heard the motorcycle in our porch. if you wanna read about her account, here it is.

i think she was acting pretty brave. be it me, miss ibeho said i might directly faint how can she say that that's insulting T.T hahahah. i might not faint but if it were me, would i be calm enough for them not to notice me? maybe, but, thank God nothing big happened and i hope they really get caught and punished! WE HAVE GOTTEN ENOUGH OF THIS! SO BACK OFF LOSERS!!!!

i'm tired. =(

sleeping deprivation is one. or is it just me?

because it seems i NEVER get enough of sleep.

i'm ugly i mean it. *sighs at the person i see in the mirror*

stupid pimples and blackheads and fine wrinkles.. GET A LIFE

LEAVE ME AND MY FACE ALONE!

congratulations for completely destroying my face

I HATE YOU.

and fats. you know what!

i think it's time you moved on

STOP STAYING IN MY BODY, I'VE GOTTEN ENOUGH OF YOU

OR.. IF YOU REALLY WANNA STAY

WHY DON'T YOU MAKE YOURSELF USEFUL

LIKE GOING TO THE RIGHT PLACES LOL

i need a change!!! UBAH UBAH! ==

"WE WILL HIDE IN THE TOILETS AND WHEN THE GIRLS GET BACK, WE WILL RAPE THEM" the above dialogue came from 11 year old kids.

i was mortified. what on earth got into the coconuts of the kids nowadays?

how could their minds possibly be so crooked and perverted?

it makes me sick just hearing that.

and that isn't the end. a few guys in particular actually 'touched' their female classmates

except that what they touched was the shadow. but this is totally wrong!

filthy kids. i pity their parents for real.

i'm feeling down again, for no reason.

maybe there's a reason after all.

i'm reading the twilight saga all over again, and am now sucked into New Moon.

i hate how i always feel for the character, especially the sad parts.

it's like Bella's gaping hole from Edward's walking away is tearing me apart as well.

but what actually is bugging me?

there must be something i forgot, but i can't seem to put a finger to it.

and that's pretty unhealthy. =(.

it's goodbye tomorrow.

i hope i wouldn't cry.

goodnight.

ren jian!

on Sunday, we went for lunch in the new Ren Jian.
kinda like this outlet more than the one in Jalan Song.
but still, the one in town is so much better.
got feel, got memories =).

well, it took them long enough to cook our food.
i dunno why, the shop was kinda empty at that time.
sien. i no eyes. ==

\

see. na ge xing fu de mo yang!
no one take for me!!!!!!
*imbalance!*
protest protest!
hahaha. nola. i not photogenic aih t.t life t.t

mum stopped us from ordering this and that..
because of the HDEP or DHEP outbreak in Taiwan.
so we ordered pudding instead.
what difference it makes, i also dunno.
but at least, it isn’t some kind of drinks.
so maybe she feels it is more safe. haha.

went for facial later that day.
but it seems my face just got worse.
haha. hello shitty skin. =(

i can kill.

i found out that my blog posts are all about FOOD for these few days!

GOSH!

i better make a change. like right now.

but still.

haha. one last i try ><

me fried this dou miao XD

cooked this soup!!

i'm really becoming more and more like an ah sam going to buy vege kok @@

and i...

i mixed the sauce nia la. haha

frog fried the egg.

okay no more food!

i'm seriously on fire.

i don't mind them playing with me.

i don't even mind if they touch my pencil case and the things inside

but this is too much.

how i wish i knew who was the impolite and evil kid who did this to my bag.

and i'll meet her parents and DEMAND that they fly to hk or china i forgot

to get the SAME MINNIE MOUSE BAG back for me.

say nia. =(. wish i could really do that.

haih, i better just use plastic bags.

ugh. i like that bag so much. =(

seriously, my mood is rotten now.

so any potential troubles, leave me alone for a sec.

well actually i decided i was gonna take some photos yesterday.

tada.

lol i saw my curler.

emo because of the pimples? haha.

hee.

dunno how take liao

so i'm still very very hot i can type a whole string of profanities but it still can't extinguish my anger.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhfmlfmlfmlshit

我爱我自己 很多很多

这一点都不像我

不懂干嘛

有种莫名的恶心感

哈哈哈！

看了很多人

头发好长好长

衣服好美好美

突然有种想法

为了你而不买的短裤 我后悔

为了你而不买的高腰短裙 我后悔

为了你而剪短的头发 我后悔

为了你放弃的所有的自己 我后悔

为你付出的一切 我后悔

因为你而挥霍的青春，时间，泪水 我后悔

我不想再听到关于你的一切

虽然放下了，但是再次想到你

我就烦

不要再来打扰我的新生活

我残忍也好

就算你过得不好

就算你真的没在追人

就算你单身一辈子

那也是你自己的事情 不要再来跟我说

因为 你再也不是我的谁

我也不想再当你的谁

我们也许快乐过 但那也已经是回忆

我不想记起 因为没有意义了 都过去了

所以拜托不要再跟我提起

别试图让我再去怀念什么

再说下去我也只会更加反感

我不讨厌你

我只是后悔自己傻的可以

现在的我

为了自己活得很开心

现在 我的头发 为了自己而留

现在 我为了自己而美丽

再见了曾经伤我的你

其实你并没有那么爱我

你爱的一直都是你自己

你要我变成的那个人 其实谁都可以做到

如果你真的爱我

不是应该接受最真实的我吗？

不过也算了

反正有一天

属于我的他会出现

他或许不是王子

不过我也不需要王子

他 一定会很爱很爱我

因为我有幸福的权利

the f.

finally i know the feeling of the rape victims.

i was just grabbed at my hand

yet i felt fear and dirtiness.

a storeman at my office grabbed my hand twice.

the first time i was at my seat doing things.

the second time i was walking up the staircase from the store to the office.

he came and passed me something

then he grabbed my hand.

both times were with strength

the first time i thought he was just playing

so i din do anything although i didn't feel good.

the second time i was scared.

i din know what the hell was he trying to do.

yeap i told the supervisor.

if it happens again i'll make sure he is dead.

mamagonggong lasapngin.

hello medical supplies.

it seems like i don't really mention about my work here

but it doesn't mean it is good.

sometimes, no news can mean bad news!

so two of my colleagues are away for orientation.

a week.

hell yeah, so i have to do my part

plus their part.

she left

A LOT for me to clear for her. A LOT.

the part i hate most is

answering phone calls.

if you ask me a job which i will never ever attempt

it will be operator/receptionist.

stop calling. T.T

so i said

i actually felt a bit bad for complaining about smk st lasap, (what to say, it also provided me a place for form six ma right) and even featuring it in i think two blogposts

yeap, here and here.

but the fact is

lasap school really got lasap students

their mere presence make me wanna puke

no joke. EEW.

mamagonggong never seen ppl so lasap before

hope all lasapians rot in the lasap school together.

godie. grrrr

ppl wan wear what it’s their business

you. LASAP kia

paiseh the photos are a bit too small you can click on the pictures for the larger image but it is not necessary as it will just make u wanna puke just like me

i guess some guys just never learn how to respect

one last word. ROT IN PEACE

渴望

如果当时成熟一点就不用像现在这么痛苦吧

为什么有的人永远都学不会放手

难道他们都不懂有时放手不只是放了别人

也可以放开自己让自己更好过吗？

有时死死的抓住只会让自己更看不清楚

看不清楚自己到底在做什么

那是很悲哀的

爱一个人不一定就要在一起不是吗

如果不放开却让你爱的他那么难熬

你觉得这是爱吗

不算什么 爱错就爱错

早点认错 早一点解脱

爱情很窄 世界很大

而我们应该长大

我不能在像从前一样

为我们的明天疯狂

现在的我

渴望自由

累死了

亲爱的外星人朋友们

快来绑架我吧！

bili bala bili bala

things i hate about being a girl:

1. mc pain

2. mc pain

3. mc pain

4. mc pain

5. mc pain

6. mc pain

7. mc pain

8. mc pain

9. lol, mc pain again

10. there are many more la, but i am not in the mood to complain so much today

11. why?

12. mc pain la LOL

lalalala

the part below is for my dearest cousin 1386tiong77

kelian de cousin, seen your blog and also your statuses in facebook

my mum and i both feel sad for you

why don't you come back?

maybe the weather there just does not suit you

come back and you can even learn cooking instead

i'm pretty sure you'll make a good cook =)

although we don't always contact, i still read your blog from time to time

i miss you arrrrr

come back la if you can, don't suffer there..

even dong qi misses you ah! =P

of pimples

i must admit i used to be quite proud of my skin

of course i mean the skin on my face not my legs hahaha

you know why?

because i had very little problems with my face

unlike other friends who had to worry about pimple, oil and so on

my very first pimple was when i was in form 2 i remember

but wow it was big

on my nose

and it was gross

luckily my friends taught me to squeeze it

after that pimple

my face remained quite okay still

but once in a while i see pimples especially around my nose

then i dunno starting from when

my face condition started to worsen

T.T really!

i had pimples

blackheads

this and that

and my nose got so dry that i could peel off the skin

but it was oily!

and from my nose, my pimple map moved to my chin, then my cheek, then my forehead, then now they are all around my brows!!!!!!!

ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZz

T.T

if they were on my forehead at least i can still cover up using my fringe ma

but now

T.T

=(

maybe you cant see from my photos

because i din take so near ma!

T.T

but i'm sure u can see scars on my face

T.T

HELP!!!!

fyi i haven been red bean masking for long

because I AM LAZY!

hahahahahaha

i'm so screwed

=(

i couldn't finish chemistry in time

it was so hard even the organic part i had to crack my head

T.T

i need serious rest and brain juice

=D

btw. if anyone comes across me online with my melody_milopeng email whether is msn or facebook, take note, that's not me

another good news, i should be free from this psycho very soon

i guess

and i hope

XD

wan mahlaesiah

just a short update as before i bury myself into the heavy load of books and stress

fyi it's the first mock next week and i am still here, not getting any further in my studies =(

so what is wan mahlaesiah

read faster please

yes i mean ONE MALAYSIA

lol

mum showed me a small piece of news in the newspaper

it said a headmaster was accused for being racist

he said chinese and indians should tie up their fringes

if they don't do show it shows that they have no respect for our fellow malays

just because they have to tudung up their head doesnt mean we have to follow suit

and whatever

that headmaster also said he wants to send chinese back to China

and indians back to India

LOL

and this reminds me of my teacher miss DJ as i mentioned in my post which should be titled smk st lasap which sadly had no title because my title bar was gone lol lol

i wished i could shout out to her

WTF CIKGU IC SAYA WARNA BIRU MACAM U PUNYA

KALAU KAMU CAKAP LAGI SAYA MEMANG SUE KAMU KE COURT

except that i am just a poor student and i will never win against that motor mouth of hers i think she got 100000 horse power =((.

that's all for now

as i said

SHORT =P

i'll be back in, i dunno? two weeks time if i can stand it =D

till then, bye

reminder: have my hair cut! =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD, em, maybe hehe

failure

first.

please don't be frightened

these are what i got when i attempted rihanna's look

sorry

my makeup skills are pure lousy

and

i dunno. i just don't look right

XD

yeah i know, they're tragic

so i guess this is another stupid emo photo post again!

see, i applied so much black/ dark colour to my face haha

personally i think this is the best among all three

and this is scary! and yucky. but i don't care XD upload nia bah!

that's all. haha. just a short post with crap. and of course, self absorbed photos. hey i spent lots of time in this sohai makeup! T.T

btw, this blog nearly got found out. T.T i must be more careful now..

just two random photos before i start =). taken in SMK St Lasap. edited using ke niu. BANZAI keniu =DD.

B.A.N.D.F.I.V.E

yes, the muet results are out. and i got band five. i know i should be happy, i am, because i don't have to sit for it again wasting a bloody RM60 over something unnecessary, people still can get into local U with band 3 so why does this lasap school require so much? if they like it so much, why don't they sponsor? =D.

back to the point, i should be happy, but i am not so happy. why? because some people made it like i was wrong to obtain such results. i know, u deserved a band 6 but it's not my fault u got band four. if you got band 6 i wouldn't ejek you like how you did. i mean, u said you were just praising me, well, your tone did not sound so. you said you were happy that our class got a band five, come on la, you sounded so phony. i can understand that you were disappointed, but what to do? i'm not trying to show off, but your attitude did piss me off. i meant it when i said i wished i got a band four. @@. maybe lasapians just have the special ability to spoil people's mood. hahahahaha.

ain't no princess

there is something i found out. when people are so into each other, they give one another names. dear, darling, honey, baby, princess. well, i was once a princess. i was once living in fantasy like all the young kids nowadays. too bad i am an unlucky one. i don't want to be a princess anymore. i just want to be myself. i am losing myself. i was not like this and i miss me. everything was easy. it was easy to smile, easy to laugh, the sky was blue, the flowers were beautiful. but now everything is no longer the same. there isn't a day when i am not unhappy. yea, i can easily fake a smile, it can cheat everyone around me but not myself. i'm sick of this life. dear god, when will this suffering end?

anyway, it was 30 June yesterday. happy fifth anniversary 2 Hitam 2005 =D

i drew this by the way, when i was young and when emo was something cool. didn't know it could one day reflect what i want to say. FUNNY

i don't need a prince, especially when the prince is you. just leave me alone. go away.