one down, many more to go!

I am never known for being courageous

and to me, donating blood is something which requires A LOT of courage and impulse

I remember accompanying mommy to a few blood donations and always secretly found her very inspiring, how could she say it did not hurt when the needle was SO BIG and so much blood is lost?

and I also remember making a vow with a friend that we must, together, for the first time donate blood in our university life.

the previous time there was a blood donation drive on campus, I went with the Mr Teoh, *that friend was nowhere to be found, lol*, but I chickened out at the sight of the nurses and of course NEEDLES

but this time, I thought it was now or never.

*It's my lifeeeeeeee*

and I finally, FINALLY, FINALLY made it!!

my first blood donation!! =D

my first blood bag.

so I overcame my fear

and it felt so good

also, the thought that my blood might actually save someone in need makes it a whole lot more meaningful! =D

p.s: it really didn't hurt, and nor did I feel dizzy after that!

up, up and away!

I am thoroughly disappointed with myself for my ultimate laziness T.T

here's a really backdated post, supposed to be written in March.

we have always talked about the hot air balloon fiesta, and finally this year, Mr Teoh brought us there! =D

Oinky was quite excited because he had been staying in the room for quite some time

and actually, me too. stuck between endless practices.

what else can make me happier like an ice cream does?

 

this guy and this Oinky. =)

I miss being simply happy.

too many things seem to happen recently

but I don't really know what.

I love you.

hi! =D

that's me giving up wanting Mr Teoh to capture a nice photo of me

haha. maybe the real problem lies within me. I am just not pretty enough that's all.

what a sad realization T.T 

overlooking the green grassland where people just lazed around

it was relaxing and refreshing, being there.

err, so back to the main focus, hot air balloons. haha

weren't there for the ride

they were gonna release 4 into the sky

but only two managed to fly, with much difficulties

while two more could only stay on the ground.

and then 夕阳无限好 只是近黄昏

we had to leave because I had choir practice at night.

sometimes all I want is to feel remembered and appreciated T.T

May.

 

it's been long. sigh.

wanted to put up a selfie of the current me but the sight of myself made me gag.

I seem to have moved on mentally from one state to another.

it's pretty bad because the previous state is what makes a big part of me.

but if selfishly speaking, it makes everything easier for me.

I know how people say you do not live for others, so why care about what others think

but it just doesn't work that way

so when I started not trying to make people happy

I realized it took less effort

but made me unhappy as well.

I saw a cat

I saw a cat

it was walking

and then it suddenly decided to roll down the very slight slope

and then it just stayed lying there on the road

I wish I were a cat

thanks for reading. haha.

my one week break

hi. whether I like it or not I have to admit I seem to have lost my passion for blogging

and also reading. other than the obvious sleepiness, internet is seriously messing up with my life

at times I mentally draw out my daily schedule but almost always fail achieving what I have planned because I spend too much time in front of my laptop or my phone, repeatedly looking at whatever crap I have already seen for the 2nd or 3rd time. need to stop, need to stop.

for this one week break I planned to sleep enough first for the first 2 days

then catch up with whoever I get to meet back here

and then devote the rest of my time to horrifying lesson plans

and READING.

I obviously overestimated myself, I'm not even halfway through the first book

out of the 5 books I brought back. HAHA. thank MAS for 30kg luggage allowance.

current dilemma: whether or not to go for bangs

I'll get it, just when?

at home I have the appropriate scissors

but my fringe is already this long

so close to getting it long enough to be tucked behind my ears

ARGHHH.

girl problems.