it's been long. sigh.
wanted to put up a selfie of the current me but the sight of myself made me gag.
I seem to have moved on mentally from one state to another.
it's pretty bad because the previous state is what makes a big part of me.
but if selfishly speaking, it makes everything easier for me.
I know how people say you do not live for others, so why care about what others think
but it just doesn't work that way
so when I started not trying to make people happy
I realized it took less effort
but made me unhappy as well.